This Other Eden

Monday, July 16, 2007

Sad memory :'(

i feeling very sick now, fever, sore throat, a bit dizzy and my muscle ache....
i got the feeling that it may be the relapse of my previous illness
i had not been taking my medicine regularly because i lazy (>_<)"
i had skip the methotrexate for two weeks le
because the doctor had taken out hydroxychloroquine from my daily medicine
i feel very lazy to eat my medicine
come to think of it, i am on medication for about three years le
today is actually my diary, not blog... jus feel like refreshing my memory...


it happen when i was sec 2, late august...
my joint start to ache and i got rashes and high fever
it went on for many days and even my family doctor don't know what has happen to me
so i went for to CGH for a thorough body checkup
then i was qurantine in a private room where i receive my very first blood test in my entire life...
the next day i was transfer to KK hospital coz i still under 16.
then i spend 11 days at KKH..
so boring la, then i also skip school for two weeks


then on the month of september 2004....
my fever was still on and off
then i was back in KKH again, for this time, i stayed for 14 days
this time i was on drip and countless of blood test.
i also did a bone marrow test where it check what happen to me and whether i got any cancer
to my relieved, i am cancer-free
but i was diagnosed with arthritis....
i was given prednisolone and it saved me from pain free...
and i miss my final year exam
they took 80% of my CA test and convert to my SA marks
luckily i score quite well for my CA test...
and amazingly i was post to the pure class with A math...
then for the next one year, i was heavily depended on prednisolone
and they say prednisolone is like steroid
and it helps in my 2.4km run....
from the previous 13 mins to 10 mins now....
but there will be morning stiffness and you can see me limping...


then on november 2005, things start to get worst
my joint pain was getting worse
this time my parent send me to NUH for treatment
i was given a choice, either i use injection or eat medicine for treatment
since injection has faster treatment, i chose injection of course...
i have to inject weekly on wednesday into my fats
so far my thigh and my stomach experience the injection.
and you know what, one injection cost $350 and i have to inject for 3 months...
but i dont know why, i got rashes and fever
at first i tot it may be the side effect of the injection
soooo..... back in hospital for the fourth time in less than 2 years


i was shivering like hell even if it is warm on the outside
i was trembling like hell as though as i was dieing soon
doctor examine me and tot it may be dengue fever
my sympton was almost exactly the same as dengue fever
but the thing is i am not having any joint pain
then i did a blood test and the doctor say my liver was not functioning properly
then i was transfer to ICU..
then my world went black, from semi unconscious to coma
the doctor told my parent to prepare for the worst as my condition is deteriorating, it only depend on myself...
luckily, i was out of danger but i was still semi-unconscious
my sis told me that i got a fit while in ICU
i was whispering something like asking her to buy fries for me at tampines mart as we are just living nearby but.... we were in NUH, remember???
i was also like scratching around pulling out my drip
the doctor got no choice but to tie me like a mentally person being tie up at IMH.
when i finally woke up, my hands and leg has many drip insert in it
i was breathing through a respiratory machine
when i was back in normal ward, the doctoe start to take out all the drip
on my arm, there is a very long tiny tube ( about 20 cm ) insert into my arm
i wonder how hey insert it into my arm
then i realise i cant walk, because i been lying on the bed for 6 days straight...
i receive physiotherapy and walking seem like so tiring
i was push on a wheelchair around the hospital, everyone was staring at me
wonder why they stare at me for??? can anyone tell me???
time passed so fast, i was discharged on 3 december 2005 after spending 17 days in that horrible prison...


i have been pain-free for more than a year now
hope i could been this kind of condition in the rest of my life




well, care for everyone around you
dont regret when your close one leave you or vice versa
life is precious, eat well, sleep well, care for your life
you know who you are if you are not sleeping well or eating well...

Posted by k€lvin at 10:05 PM